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May 31, 2009

Still a Student Some Days

I am going to start writing here again some days to help me get through something that's coming up in two months. I'll be speaking at a conference in August. It is surprising even to me, but I have already spoken once at a conference. For the first one I drank a lot of wine beforehand to get through the talk. I know that's not a good way to deal with things, but I did get done with the speech. Drinking is not going to be option for my performance this time. I am scared. And I need to start taking steps to get myself ready for this.

Social anxiety is still something I deal with every day. It's generally better than it was four years ago. But there are still many days when I can't do all the things I'd like to do. I keep working at it. Or at least I should be.

Ileana posted about my graduation awhile ago. Reading that again, that makes me smile. But the truth is that I'm still a student in ways. And I'm still trying to graduate.

Posted by successfullyshy at 11:03 PM